I recently find myself jobless and friendless in a very large, very new city 1,000 miles away from everyone I have ever known- except for my husband. I have always made friends as an adult at work- how else do adults make friends?? It is June 22 and I have been in this city since March without a job (not for a lack of trying) feeling very isolated to say the least. I have talked to my husband, but he is so outgoing he can make friends with any group of random strangers and doesn't really understand the life of a wallflower. So I need to vent and I don't care who reads this or if nobody reads this, I just need to get it OUT.
It's not just joblessness that is making me feel like the walls are closing in either- it's my husband's stepmother from whom I have no escape! Because I don't have somewhere to be 8+ hours a day, she thinks that I should be available to her constantly and if I don't answer the door or phone for whatever reason, I hear a lengthy lecture on respect or she or they call my husband WHILE HE IS AT WORK to complain about me. I've stopped going to their apartment because every time I do my husband gets a phone call about something that I did to displease or disrespect them. They have a lengthy list of things, with new ones added every day!, of things I can do to be 'disrespectful.'
I just recently had a very bad cold- lost my voice, terrible cough, body aches, fatigue. I could barely get out of bed just to lay on the couch. My smother-in-law (step-mother-in-law... get it? :-D) told me today, as she tells me every time that I get a cold, that it's because I don't wear enough clothes that I get sick. I get cold, I get sick. IT'S BEEN 90 DEGREES. I try to tell her that being cold does not cause you to get sick, but she does not want to hear it, she just wants me to wear pants and long sleeves in 90 degree weather.
A little background on me, I've never been called disrespectful in my life. I have always given people respect, that is unless you have done something to be undeserving of respect. I have tried to continue to put a fake 'customer service' face on for the sake of my husband, but my fake niceness can only stretch so thin. This feels like a job that I'm not being paid for and it's the worst job in the world, and I worked as a cashier for Walmart, okay? And now I'm all fired up, thinking of my in-laws. I always thought those dumb romantic comedies were exaggerating for the sake of a few cheap laughs.
But seriously, in-laws are the worst.
